Sunday, 8 January 2012

exercise : function of vitality or vanity?



"Face your deficiencies and acknowledge them; but do not let them master you. Let them teach you patience, sweetness, insight." - Helen Keller

Even though I have always been overweight , I have nevertheless always tried to be active - either through hobbies such as dance (I participated in  jazz classes for 13 years) or through exercise.  As I grow older, however, my ability to pursue fitness in any manner becomes harder as I seem to be aging into a delapidated state of health (I am a chronic pain sufferer). 


I have to tell you something;  I have enough trouble motivating myself to exercise in spite of the pain I suffer with daly, without society constantly telling me that being 'fat' is synonymous with being inadequate (aka lazy), and that  exercise best purpose is  as a means to becoming thin versus as a pursuit to a qualitative health.  This is insanity.


Through my many years of eating under the supervision of a renal dietician (renal refers to the kidney, and I suffer from kidney disease), I have come to see that  one's weight does not necessarily determine well-being, and that exercise and eating healthfully are always beneficial, regardless of whether they cause weightloss.


The quest for body perfection is exhausting and unrelenting. We need to have self-compassion for ourselves.  We need to acknowledge, accept and even embrace our 'limitations', and refrain from seeing them as personal failings and imperfections. We need to stop self-judging ourselves upon what we cannot do,, and we need to let go of our incessant and debilitating self-criticisms and become kind and loving and accepting of ourselves - ALL of ourselves. 


I still battle those demons.  I have not become perfect in deflecting society's measure of me.  I am, however, doing better every day at calling a truce with my body.  I am, however, doing better at  accepting AND loving the woman who is reflected back in the mirror; and above all, I am doing better at telling society to fuck-off, because I am indeed fabulous - inside  and out! 


xo Jen
have a great day, and may it exceed your expectations